Prior Family: Growing bigger every day!

I have been in the hospital for about 2 1/2 weeks and I am shocked at how fast these baby boys are growing. It seems like one day they are hardly moving and the next day I am being kicked in the rib cage. Parker and Daton are both measuring large for their gestational age and are thus far healthy and happy little boys. I had an ultrasound earily Thurday morning (9/22) and Dr. Nacasha said that both boys are now viable, meaning that if they absolutely had to be delivered, they would most likely live (but they would most likely had a tough struggle). Even so, it was good news. About being here for 2 weeks and on super strict bedrest, my cervix did still shorten a tiny bit but the process has drastically slowed down.

Here is my 21 week twin baby belly. I weigh as much now as I did when I delivered both Natalie and Delaney (175 lbs,...yikes) I can hardly imagine how big I am going to be when these boys are born.

Yesterday was my 1st emotionally challenging day. There were lots of tears and I missed my dear husband, children and best friend soooo much. Mike graduates next Friday and I wish that I could be there. Mike, his mother, and his 2 sisters will be taking the kids to Disney Land and it's so hard for me to let them go. The thought of them being so far away while I am in the hospital and completely helpless is so scary for me. As a mother, all the worst thoughts come flooding into my mind. What if they get into a car accident? What is my kids are overly tired or hungry. Even though I have the most amazing husband in the world, I can't help but worry. After all, I am a mother. Even though it is so extremely hard to let them go and knowing that I can't be there to see their little smiling faces,

they all deserve to go and have a good time. Letting go is humbling but not easy. Mike has worked hard and I want my kids to be happy, so they will be going to Disney Land next week and I will do everything in my power to not worry too much. So, yesterday was surprisingly challenging and sort of caught me off gaurd. I have been so strong since I was admitted to the hospital that I never really expected to have a bad day. Again, I think it is mostly related to knowing that next week my family will be so far away, but I never expected it to affect me so much. Today has been much better and I am praying for strength and peace and feeling much better.